I wonder why I still let him cross my mind. When I can actually just not let him. But it's not easy, so not easy, it bugs me. This is actually frustrating, since I've been through this once already, and it's happening again. I know this will take some time, but it will go away.
For now I can just write about it.
I just hope I had the chance to be nice to him before he left, said goodbye properly and take back what I said (that he was an asshole most of the time). Well, he really can be an ass at times, but it actually endeared me to him :) All I have now is regrets. I took what could have been for granted. Everything then was confusing, nothing really clear anyway, so I just took the chance to say what I felt, but I guess it was too late. And maybe, he was not interested at all.
I wonder how he is now, maybe already making a move on someone else. I miss him terribly. I want us to be friends again and make peace already but now maybe is not yet the right time.
I laid my cards alright, or did I? Not clear eh. I just wish he knows that I like him, for real, and I still want to know him more and just be with him, making fun of something or someone, just to laugh with him again. Coz I know we both like to laugh, we're happy persons :D
I wish I can just laugh again soon :(
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